Sunday, May 08, 2005

Happy Mothers Day

To each and every one of you ladies who read my ramblings. I hope you all have a great day.

Got to give my mom a call in the morning to wish her happy mother's day. Just realized that its been quite a while since I last saw either of my parents actually. Something like almost a year and a half. Actually since I've been here in Toronto I don't think I've seen my mom on an actual mother's day during the last decade except for once in 1999.

Just wished things had worked out different I guess but a so it go and I'm here while she's in Barbados. So yep I miss having my mom near me especially on days like this although truth be told mother's day has never been a big deal with my mom. No big deal, no fancy lunches, no flowers, just a happy mother's day. Another day more or less but at least one where I saw my mom.

So I reminisce on my mom especially on days like this. Got to blame/praise her for who I am now because I think she raised my right. She thought me to fear God and to do what's right, she thought me how to respect women and how to respect myself. She thought me not to take any crap. She thought me that education was important and to use common sense. She thought me that if you don't understand something you need to be asking questions, she thought me that you shouldn't put yourself in stupid situations if possible. Use ya common sense nuh lol.

She told me stories and read to me before I could read for myself probably inspiring my creativity. She thought me that one has to be careful in choosing friends and that friendships are two way streets and if one person is putting in all the work then its not a friendship anymore. She thought me about integrity, striving to be the best and how to work hard. Work hard, yea my mom is like the hardest working person out there that I know. Its like she never stops going. If she's chilling then either she's in church or she's sick. Tried to get her to slow down but that's just the way she's always been.

I wish my mom understood me better though.

I wish I was located closer to my mom, that I could do more for my mom, that I could see my mom more often because I know these things will haunt me when she dies. In these things I feel like I've somehow failed. Wish I had done things differently or had made different choices or that I was able to give back to my mom what I think she deserves. But I guess nothing is ever big enough or enough to repay one's parents for what they've done for you. Still wish I could do more though. Makes me feel like a big failure sometimes. Oh well, maybe one day I can do more inshallah.

Happy mother's day.

11 comments:

Campfyah said...

Oh what a sweet post. Thanks for the Mothers Day greetings.

I'm not to big into the day myself and as I also recall, I don't remember when last my mother and I shared a Mothers Day and more recently when last my son and I shared one. Oh well such is life at times. All least there are within calling distance and as long as there are breathing on this earth we can still reach out to our mothers and next month fathers.

Abeni said...

I have grown accustomed to my mother's absence.It is my grandmother I miss but our mothers really define who and what we become.So nuff thanks to them for putting up with us:)

summer m. said...

that was a very nice post, jdid.

Anonymous said...

I agree with a lot of what you wrote here JDid.

However, having lost my Mother (five years in June) I would encourage you to either make a trip to see her in Bim soon, or let her come up to visit you in Canada....like you say, you don't want any feelings of "I should have" if your parents happen to leave you in an untimely fashion.

Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers...what would we all be without what they taught and did for us? Dr. D.

Mad Bull said...

Good thoughts, Jdid... My mom not with me either and I wish shee could be near too...
I plan to go to Jam soon to give her a check tho...

Jdid said...

@camp - quite true
@abeni - yea I'm accustomed too just sometimes I wish it wasnt like that
@summer - thanks
@Dr D - yea I will try
@Mad Bull - yea boy try reach soon

Burke said...

Very nice thoughts. I'm sure your mom understands that you can't be there physically as often as you would like. I'm sure you'll get the opportunity to make it back home sometime soon.

4panist said...

sounds like you need to go home for a while. Mothers are extra special and I know mine is very dear to me. We also need to remember all those women who acted as mothers to us. Some are aunts, some are friends of the family, some are neighbours but they helped to raise us and often they gave us the same love and support that our real mothers gave. big up to all de muther dem.

Big N said...

You never appreciate your mom until you don't see her every single day... glad you feel that way.

Lene said...

You are a damn good son. Most people don't even think like that nowadays about their parents.

sweetgirl said...

Hey..Hi there all... u know guys...u are so lucky ...having ur mom on earth.. u should appreciate the oportunity,,not all can..plz..go see ur mom...ok..dont..-> Call her instead ...i mean whats gonna b?.uhm...50 dollars? shes worth it...just do it..u dont know how painful is losing someone that u love..and blaming urself bcz u had the chance and u didnt take advange of it.
Ok.. see yah guys...have a nice week..
P.s ..oh im 16 f btw..lol.. Take care..